Step 1: Post this into your LJ publicly.
Step 2: Others will reply anonymously about what they really think of you.
Step 3: Cry, because this meme is so brutal, and it hurts.

Are you going to do it?

Probably not.

I went for a walk late last night.

It did me good, I couldn't sleep.

I'm home now, I'm glad to get away from that shit hole of a school. I'm glad to get away from everyone, too. They suck.

But now I'm here with my mother who I can hear retching in the bathroom right now. God, she fucks up one kid, but now she wants to have another? Is she sure she isn't it's mother this time, too? 

I'll be lucky if she dies in childbirth or something. At least I'll be able to get some peace and quiet then, maybe, as long as the baby dies, too.

... Eugh, will she fucking stop it? Bitch.

Why did I make one of these? I don't see the point in them.

I doubt I'll use it much, I don't want to talk to anyone when off the internet, nor do I want to talk to anyone on the internet.

I'm going home tomorrow, though. Then it's the trip. Why did I choose to come? I won't get any fun out of it. I'll just have to choose some of my favourite books; they should pass the time. I really don't want to go. Knowing our school, we'll be made to hang out together in teams or something.

Wankers. I'm going to go pack some stuff for home now.

Name: Ryo Ikeuchi.
Age: 15.
Birthday: 22^nd December.
Grade Average: D+

History: Ryo was born into a middle-class family, his mother, Rika Ikeuchi wasn’t able to get pregnant, so her sister, Mika Matsuyama was her surrogate, and gave birth to him. When Ryo was born, Mika tried to keep him, because she herself didn’t have a partner, so she felt that she would never have children herself. She was able to get out of the hospital, and back to her home before Ryo’s mother and father (Mizuki Ikeuchi) came and demanded that they give Ryo to them. They got him back, too.

At the age of four, Ryo found out that his mother, Rika, didn’t give birth to him, and started resenting them, saying that they took him away from his “true mother.” They explained that it was still their egg and sperm, but because he was so young, he didn’t understand them and thought they were lying.

From then on, Ryo continually hit his mother with anything he could find to use, mostly belts and sticks. She let it happen, and told nothing of it to her husband. As the years when on, the beatings got worse and worse, and his mother would constantly make up excuses for the cuts and bruises on her face. Even though Ryo knew what a surrogate was, and understood that the egg was in fact his mother’s, and the sperm was his dad’s, he still resented them, as that is what he grew up doing and doesn’t know any different.

At the age of fourteen, Ryo was sent to boarding school, and made it clear that he didn't want to be friends with anyone. Ryo nearly quit the school just before the trip, but his father wouldn't allow him to do so.

Appearance: Ryo is short-sighted, so he has to wear glasses, or contact lenses. He prefers to wear contact lenses most of the time, but when he can't be bothered putting them on, he wears glasses instead.

Personality: Ryo has withdrawn himself from society after he found out that his parents are liars – he came to start believing everyone around him is a liar, so he doesn’t try to join in. Whenever someone tries to talk to him, he’ll usually respond with a snide comment and talk about the person’s bad traits until they finally back off. Or he’ll hit them, like he does to his mother, which is why he usually only hits girls, but has occasionally hit boys, too. Ryo is also normally angry, and has a small fuse—he can be ticked off easily, mostly from comments about family.

Strengths:

Strong – from beating his mother from a young age, he has developed quite a lot of upper body strength, especially on the arms. When he hits, it hurts.

Smart – even though Ryo has bad grades, he is smart, even though he doesn’t show it. He developed this smartness from reading, which is what he usually does, as he likes to be away from people, and reading is the best way to do that.

Weaknesses:

Trust – Ryo finds it hard to trust someone, and hasn’t been able to trust anyone since he found out about his “real mother.”

Arrogance – Ryo is arrogant, and sometimes it gets him in to trouble, as he is usually beaten at school. (This is also for hitting girls in his class, and other classes.)

Overnight Bag: Spare clothes, toiletries, a few books, his glasses and an iPod.

Father: Mizuki Ikeuchi - Mizuki was a truck driver, and usually worked nights, which is why he never finds Ryo hitting his wife Mika. Lately, he has started to get suspicious of his wife; as the excuses she started giving were becoming more far-fetched all the time. Just before Ryo turned fourteen he installed a camera in the house, and caught Ryo hitting his wife. After that, Mizuki sent his son to boarding school after he beat his son and left scars on his body. He then quit his job and now works as a computer accountant from home so he can watch over his wife and son when he comes home on holidays.

Mother: Mika Ikeuchi – Mika is a housewife and usually spends all her time at home, slaving on hand and foot for her son. When her son started to beat her, she didn’t dare hit him back, nor do anything to him, as she didn’t want him to resent her anymore than he already did. When Ryo was thirteen, she started cutting herself, but hid it from both her husband and son. After Ryo was born, she and her husband wanted to have another child, but now, she is scared to have another, because she doesn’t know if it will resent her like Ryo does. Just after Ryo turned fifteen, her husband persuaded her to try again, and miraculously she got pregnant. At the time of the trip, she is eight months pregnant.

Siblings: none, but there is one on the way.

Extra-Curricular Activities: Fencing team; he likes hitting things. D:<

Classroom Behaviour: "Ryo never participates in class discussions and keeps to himself most of the time. He is smart, but does not show it in his work. He has a habit of hitting other students, and getting into fights. He does not try to befriend his classmates. He also likes to pick on people."

Classroom Clique: loner.

Any Memorable Moments:

Ryo hit a teacher just after he came, after he ordered him to the front of the class to introduce himself; he kept asking him questions about his family. He had to see the school psychiatrist for a month after, but he never showed up to the sessions.

Relations:

Taylor Takahashi: Ryo has never been bothered with Taylor much, as she never really got in his way. About a month after he came to the boarding school, he over heard her talking to [person] about having a crush on him. After that, Ryo came up to her and told her: "I don't fuck with girls," thinking that that would put a stop to her crush. After they were paired up on a project, Ryo himself developed a slight crush on her, but since he has never had those feelings for a woman before, he doesn't realise what it is." 

Yoko Shimzuki: Ryo has never really been involved with Yoko, as she hasn't bothered to talk to him. When rumours about Ryo crushing on Taylor started to surface, Yoko took this oppurtunity to taunt Ryo. After she came up to him, and laughed at the fact that a women beater actually loves a women, he punched her in the nose, which started a major fight between the two. After Yoko had slapped him, causing a large mark across his face, she started taunting him about him not having a real mother and father and being a "test tube baby," which he isn't, but Yoko doesn't know the full details. Ryo lunged onto Yoko, but was grabbed by two other boys from the class, to stop him attacking her. That happened a day before the trip.

Taichi: Ryo and Tachi have never seen eye-to-eye, but when Ryo first moved to the school, they never really bothered with each other. Although, when Ryo first hit [person (I'll have to sort that out with someone)], Tachi stepped in and started smacking Ryo around. Ryo tried to avoid Tachi from then on, but on occasions, they get into fights, but the only time Ryo get seriously hurt is when he was threatening to hit Mami [I'll find a reason for it when I sort out relations with Mami's player XD]

Raiden: Because of Itsuo, Ryo sees Raiden a lot of times throughout the day, and is constantly telling him to 'get the fuck out of his room' when he comes over. Ryo knows that Raiden repulses him, and once smacked Raiden when he locked Ryo out of his room.

Aito "Habachi": When Ryo first moved, Aito was one of the first to approach him. Ryo didn't like him, and Aito pissed him off. But when Aito told Ryo about his parents, and that he, too, hates them, Ryo took an interest in Aito, if only to have someone to share his disgust about parents. Aito makes Ryo realise that he isn't alone, and that there are other people with parents as bad as his. Their friendship isn't really a real friendship, but Ryo is glad that he isn't alone

Itsuo: Itsuo is Ryo's roommate. Ryo tends to start fights with Itsuo over trivial things; but most of the time they just don't speak. Itsuo bringing his friends over constantly annoys Ryo, and he often hits Itsuo because he does this. After a certain incident, Ryo started to hate Itsuo less, although, not by much and he never shows it, and still beats Itsuo just as much as before. 

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